November 10, 2010
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In the Meantime...
Lake canoes function best when they are not only upright but in the water with a person inside, paddling away. Many times in my life, I have felt like the lone tree, the lone stub in the water, the upside-down canoe with no purpose at this time. At those times, I was listening to the wrong whisperer; the enemy who wants me to believe that I am worth nothing and that I am ugly and have no purpose. and that nobody would really want to love me as I need to be loved, especially if and when they knew that I had this critical, judgemental gremlin in me that could burst out when provoked. The enemy whisperer had me. Almost completely. all the way down to where I thought I'd just pack a bag and leave for a few days to mull things over and further distance myself from "Dodge". "Dodge" is not only my pet name for my town, but for anything in my life that disturbs me. I wanted to leave because deep, down inside, my anger was fading into indifference, like a fire going out, dying with nothing left but ashes that would eventually go cold. God knew that. The Spirit that is more than powerful, that is purely and magnificently His, swept down into that place, down into "Dodge" and poured a good dose (a God dose) of peace and love and comfort. His voice told me to listen carefully and just be still. He said to give it another day here and be. BE. Be Him through me. Be a wife. Be a mother. Be the person who loves music. Listen to it. Be the person who loves to notice beauty in unsuspecting places. Be delighted by the daily things. Be silly. Be funny. Be intelligent with the knowledge I have and reach out for more. Be a neighbor, a friend. Be a daughter of the King. Be in the power of the femaleness that is God given. Be beautiful just by believing that my Creator says I am. Be active! Be creative. Be trusting. Trusting. Trusting. Be in a place where He wants me, not only in His arms, but in my husband's arms, because he likes me there. Be in love. Be here, on purpose. In Dodge. And it is okay to believe that someday, I will be in the place where my heart truly desires. He will always BE with me.
Comments (8)
This is a wonderful post! I love it and your pictures.
this is beautifully raw post. i love it Gail. something about "dodge" makes me smile...only because i so get that. and now you have given me a word to call it.
His blessings to you, friend, as you "be"...
You are special!
@oldfatgramma - @down_onthefarm - @aretheyallyours - Thank you, dear girlies. <3 And Cindy, I'm glad you now have a word to call "it"...Dodge.
It as so good to hear from you. Are you feeling well?
@georgene - It's good to hear from YOU as well! I am actually feeling SO good. Sometimes I still get a bit depressed, but lately (as in the past week) I have been "up". Life is so full of trials and it's the people trials that get me more than anything. Physically, things are better and I no longer have any pain in my chest. All I need to do is work better at losing my weight. I have lost some because I eat less. But there's plenty more to work off! Thank you for caring!!!
@Richgem - My morning prayer.. "Lord please help me eat in moderation for your glory today". My evening prayer.. "Lord, please forgive me for not eating in moderation today and not bringing you glory". *sigh* It's a battle but I'm confident God is in the battle and will conform me into the image of Christ!
Hi Gail,
We have always used the phrase "Get out of Dodge" as our home place lol.
This was so good & heartfelt I loved it, it hits me in a place that needs comfort, God's comfort. Frankly I could not imagine not having God's peace that passeth all understanding. What a beautiful way of expressing, & showing....thanks so much
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