Blue and Gold. These are the colors of the local high school. They are also our younger son'.s favorite clothing colors. I love gold leaves against a vivd blue sky! There is something so crisp and definate and reliable about this picture and what it symbolizes to me. It's artistic and beautiful, natural, created. The beauty of the tree caused me to look up, up beyond the tree, as if expecting to see God holding a paintbrush dripping with color. I needed the delight of tis moment as we are in the middle of what has become a frustrating remodel project. Fortunately, our friend we hired to do the work is in good health. But his way of doing things is very wasteful and is not our way. It would be so easy to tear him apart verbally. But I won't. I know that God has a way. His way. It's better than my way or anyone else's because He is holy and perfect and divine. I fail to do His way, yet He doesn't tear me apart. He continues to love me. He forgives me. Maybe He even chuckles at the silly, un thinking things I do and say. I do realize that we are not to judge others. We are to be gracious and understanding. I never asked the Lord to give me patience. I did ask Him to show me what was ugly in my heart. i asked this quite awhile ago before we even knew we'd be doing this project! Well, let me tell you, He is showing me and I see it daily. This Ugly in my heart must be washed out completely. It may take awhile. And maybe not; it depends on how I let go of it. So many of us have been burned in life by the people who are closest to us, whether emotionally or physically close. I have been scorched a few times more than I would've liked. But here I've been, secretly scorching my friend who has been working right close by on my house. Yes, he is at fault. But it is not right for me to hold in this grudge. I need to (with hubby) lovingly go to him and express the legitimate concern and then let go completely of the anger that has been building. Then maybe everything will come together and our project will be complete. And hopefully the breaker in the new electric box will not pop tonight, robbing us of half the electricity which is running our little space heaters. The temp. tonight is supposed to be 32. We need the heaters. The addition hasn't been wrapped and sided yet. There are places where the cold wind is whipping through the gaps. There's no stove/oven. No washer or dryer. Varied types of dust covering everything. Plastic boxes filled with kitchen and Ryan's stuff are stacked in our little livingroom and in our bedroom. Ryan is sleeping on the couch, which gts a new layer of dust each day. The shop vac spews vaccumed dust out the top and all over the place! I am stating how things are right now, not complaining! I am so very thankful for what we have and what we get to do! I anticipate what all we will be able to do for God's glory once this mess is all cleaned up and prettied up! I need for the Spirit of the Lord to reign here! I yearn for His glory, like the intense gold of the leaves against the fabulous blue sky. And I hope to be His paintbrush, spreading love like beautiful shades of paint to all who come through our door.
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