March 24, 2012
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The Life Buds
The Cottonwoods are budding, thanks to our warm streak before the massive snowstorm! The one thing I love about Spring is the Life that pops, seemingly, out of nowhere. Everything that was dead and scraggly and scary is now ignited with color and excitement and promise.
That sad thing right now is that today, the sky is grey and its absence of color is matching my somber mood as I contemplate the WHY of my dear friend’s brother’s suicide. I do understand the difficult circumstances he was in. But to completely give in to deep discouragement and leave wife and daughters devastated and siblings and parents and other relatives and friends and co-workers shocked? That’s the capital W in WHY? Lost hope? Selfishness?
The death is like Spring reversed if you look at it eye ball to eye ball…grey, scraggly, drab, lifeless… Yet in reality, this guy believed in Jesus and who He is and what He did at His death and ressurrection. This friend was forgiven for his choices at that cross. I believe he’s with Jesus in heaven now. And that’s the only comfort in this tragedy. Kind of like putting the buds on the tree and knowing they contain life.
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Our grandson committed suicide several years ago. He was 23, and left a wife and daughter. I really think a person is temporarily insane when they kill themselves. I believe we’ll see him again in Heaven, even though he wasn’t following the Lord at that time of his life. He accepted Christ when a small boy. I am sorry for your friend. I don’t think the person realizes the grief that the family will go through, or they wouldn’t do it.
Sorry for your sad and somber feelings over your brother’s suicide. It is hard to know what they were thinking when they take their own life. My feeling is that they only want the hurt to stop and aren’t thinking past a way to achieve that.
Love you my friend.
Oh, Gail — I’m so sorry to read this. It will be difficult for your friend — please know that I will keep you and her in my thoughts! HUGS!!!
so sad!
@oldfatgramma - It was my friend’s brother.
@ata_grandma - You’re probably right!
@slmret - Thank you, Janet. I wish I could be with my friend, but everything is so far away. She knows my heart is with her.
So sad and I believe there is understanding for those who take their own lives. I believe something in their head goes haywire and they are not responsible for what they do.
i can speak from experience… that when one contemplates suicide… it is a place where you mind doesn’t make sense, and there is a sense of not being able to change things or solve any type of problems. it’s a low with no hope, no nothing. it’s empty.
@Richgem - Oops must have read to fast.
Oh my Gail, I am so sorry for the loss, terrible thing suicide…we never know what goes through one’s mind? My cousin’s daughter took her life a few years ago she was in her 20′s that was devastating for her she liked to have had a nervous break down herself so sad for the whole family.
ryc: thanks so much I appreciate you thinking of me tomorrow as I have never had a good experience with mammogram’s and the last one I did last year was a new machine ugh it hurt, all that grabbing and pulling lol…like a rude male trying to rip `em off lol!
Hugs sweetness…
I’m so sorry to read this. Last night I was actually thinking of a girl who I was quite close to in grade school, who in her late twenties, committed suicide and it got me to thinking of others and I was rather shocked when I tallied up the number of people I knew personally that have taken their own life. Oh the bondage we can find ourselves in at times. Christian or no…despair and hopelessness are a deadly thing. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your friend. ~Dawne
Oh hon, I am so sorry! I agree that they are in a place where they only want the pain to go away. I’ve been at the edge of that awful canyon and it is hard to see past the hopelessness. I believe that God covers those who aren’t able to go through any more turmoil or pain and that you will see him in heaven one day. It’s sad. Holding his family and loved ones up in prayer.
Oh Ladies- I wept when I read your comments and thoughtful thoughts in regards to Gail’s post about my brother’s suicide. We do not know what hell he faced. We do not know the desperation, the loss of hope, the black bottomless pit he faced that fateful day on Friday March 23rd 2012. I only know that I have the HOPE of eternity and of seeing and holding my brother James again, and he will be whole the way Jesus made him and he will be perfect, the way God intended him to be. I wait in HOPE while I cry my tears and fumble around trying to find my next step after this devastating and painful blow to my heart. thank you for sharing your thoughts with us, and I covet your prayers for our family.