Waiting is so hard, especially when it’s a life in the day. So, I keep busy. Thankfully, I enjoyed a visit with one of my favorite people in the world. Yes, you, Sheryl. It was a treasured time; crying, laughing, talking, listening, sharing hopes, verbally figuring out stuff like heartbreak and what that looks like to a mom… soulbreak and what that looks like to legalistic church people who assume that YOU’RE the spiritually constipated one when actually, it’s probably THEM. I don’t know, but I am certain that God loves and has forgiven all of us. He wants to love and forgive through us.
And then there’s the trust thing and the believing that He will come through for us. I’m seeing, through my mom’s cancer and deterioration that he DOES come through…with little blessings like a pink painted walker and a genuine Philly hoagie for mom. And how he preserved my son and his best buddy when his buddy lost control of his car and they hit a wall and then bounced off to roll 3 times. Thank you DEAR GOD for not taking my son or his friend or his friend’s younger brother quite yet.
I know, I know. People all around me have suffered through SO much more and here I am, talking like a life in the day and a day in the life is too, too much. Earlier yesterday, I felt that. wanted to just sit down and cry. But, the meltdown didn’t come. I’d already leaked out enough here and there.
So, the fire near our town has been brought into submission, enough so that firefighters can go help in other states, like Colorado. We have cooler temps and more wind today and by now, everyone is despairing because still…no rain in the forecast. Such is life here, today. I’m happy that the sun is shining and we keep going. We love and are loved. What a blessing!
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Oh, Gail — I’m so sorry life is so difficult right now! First — I’m glad Ryan survived his car accident! And I’m glad to hear that your fire has settled enough that they can send the firefighters to other, larger fires! That is always a good sign!
Try to take life one day at a time, rather than sitting around waiting for the next day to come — there’s less time to think that way
! And try to keep your mom busy too — her life will be happier for it! Then, if you need to, please sit down and cry — a little or a lot — it all helps to release the tensions of all the other situations.
Love you, Gail — take care!
So glad Ryan is okay and his friend is going to be okay! It isn’t easy being a mom!
Oh my word, friend! We seem to be on the same page! The legalistic church people, the trusting issue………it all sounds so familiar. I haven’t posted about it a lot. I guess I just figure everyone is tired of hearing me whine. I lost my support system. All the women at the CR group that I thought I could trust. The church folk that I *thought* would be there for me. One of the other CR leaders is a major player in the church and her family decides what will and won’t happen there. Imagine my shock when she lied to me and then turned around and told everyone privately how awful I was because I called her on it. She’s something else. Ugh!
You are so blessed to have a friend you can talk to! I’m afraid to trust anyone.
Praying for your mom! Also praying for the drought you’re going through and for the rains to come!
So sorry you are going through all this but through it all you are very blessed my friend. He shows you his love and mercies daily and they are new every morning.
Blessings to you today.
@oldfatgramma - Thank you, Linda! It’s hard, but I know God is with us every split second of the way! Those new mercies every morning? I’m feeling them this morning. Thank you for the Hang in There mini! You’re so sweet!
@Texasjillcarmel - You’re on it…”pray for rain”!!! It’s gong to be hotter, beginning today. And when it’s 118 in Phoenix, it’s 105ish here, which doesn’t sound like a big deal but we’re a mile high and the sun is very intense. Take care over there, Texas friend!
@slmret - I love you, Janet, for not only caring about me, but for encouraging me to take care of myself! Today, I’ll be taking mom to the doctor and the siblings want me to ask “that” question: “Hpw long does she have”? This doctor is the general one and this is the one who suspected the cancer had returned. SO, here we go…..This evening, I hope to soak my feet in a ginger bath after I walk on the treadmill and lose myself in a good book.
@SealedbyGrace - I know about that fear of people, not wanting to trust anyone. But, God has shown me after time, that there ARE people you can trust. They just may be in a whole different place, literally. I’ve also learned that I needed to let go of bending over backwards to please people in order to make myself look better. I just act upon the nudging of the Holy Spirit and have a heart of grace and forgiveness toward those who hurt others, which you’ve probably already realized.
@cerwindoris - Thank you, Doris. Today could be tough, as I’m supposed to ask mom’s original doc the tough question, if she indeed has the guesstimated answer. I’m so thankful for people in my life who truly do care, truly love, and truly pray for God’s best, even if His way is the most difficult way. I’ve always appreciated your posts, especially the verses!
I hope the doctor visit is productive for you! Just sent you a message. A ginger bath and a good book sound wonderful for tonight!
@Richgem - I will. It is cooler in Prescott I know. My niece lives there and sister has a little cabin,too.
hey, I’m going to meet Lisa at the antique mall today if you want to come? just kidding.
@Richgem - You said “in a whole different place, literally”……….do you mean another city or state, as in moving into a new area or are you referring to a different place or stage in life? I’m not sure I understand.
I’ve learned to have a forgiving heart, but I’m cautious around people. I’ve been burned so many times! I’m still working on coming out of my shell with people. I’ve been forcing myself out of the house lately and that seems to help some.
sorry for the 19 firefighters and praying for their families.