Many of us have had a “close call” in our lives. Nine years ago today, I had a big one. I was admitted to the hospital for emergency surgery to remove an ectopic pregnancy. During surgery, something went wrong and in 5 minutes, I lost half my body’s blood supply. I’d already lost the baby, which, at the time I didn’t know was in the tube. After surgery, the doctor, nurse and anesthesiologist were all struggling to wake me up.. Finally, I was barely aware that something was going on and I desperately wanted my husband. I felt miles away in a world of sheer pain, yet tried so very hard to call my husband. He was there but I still was too far away to realize he was talking to me and stroking my arm. Once I heard him, I felt comforted. Still in sheer pain, but glad he was there. Much later, my doctor explained to me what happened and I realized I almost died. Even later, the sadness and confusion of the pregnancy had me tied up in knots. Eventually, I recovered and experienced the thrill for living, in my own careful way. At the same time, my old enemy, FEAR stepped in and nightmares of losing my children took over. AGAIN. Each year on this day, I thank the Lord for letting me live. But, PLEASE Lord, let me not fear. No matter what happens, let me trust YOU to take care of everything and everyone I love. “Glory to Thee for strength withheld, For want and weakness known, And the fear that sends me to Thyself for what is most mine own. I have a heritage of joy that yet I must not see; But the hand that bled to make it mine, Is keeping it for me.” Oh, dear ones, God surely does love us all. I am so grateful to be alive! Someday soon, I will be FULLY, gloriously alive!!! Today is a GOOD DAY. That pillow was made for me by my dear daughter, who has a knack for giving me special things when the Lord knows I need it the most.
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Awww…that’s a sweet pillow she made you. And the story is pretty amazing too. Thanks for your comment,,,not sure if you read my reply a couple above yours to the first two comments….I won’t be getting any better. But it’s ok. I’m just glad to know what it is.
I hope your weekend is a great one. I’ve done my photo challenge but want to see if I can get some unique shots tomorrow. Hopefully I’ll post on Sunday. I love a challenge so thanks.
Oh you poor thing! That must have been very traumatic. Very! Thank God you are doing well and living life for the Lord to the fullest! You are a miracle! God has a plan and purpose as I’m sure you must know. : ) Praying for peace and safety in the name of Jesus. Psalms 91 is a good reminder for us all. You seem like such a sweet Christian mother, what a gift you must be to your family. I see in just the short time I’ve known you, you seem to be such a sweet, sensitive woman. And that is a true gift and very unusual these days in this crazy selfish world. I don’t know about you but sometimes I feel like hiding! : )
I know how you feel a little, with the birth of my first baby girl, I hemorraged, it’s a miracle I am here too. I could blog here on it, so many awful mistakes were made by the doctor and hospital… so awful. My bladder had gone into shock the labor was so traumatic because of mistakes. But thank God He is God, and protected me as He protected you too sweet sister.
That pillow is wonderfully sweet, and isn’t it something the way one of our children somehow knows just the perfect thing for us? : )
Even though it was a traumatic true story, I found such sweet comfort the way you called for your husband, I tend to do that same thing in traumatic circumstances.. It’s this…”I need my husband!” feeling. Even at my Grandma’s funeral…I walked around saying… “I need to find my husband.”
You are a blessing to know, your blogs are a blessing and a sweet note of sunshine from the Lord, thank God for real sisters in the Lord with heart.
Love and blessings, prayers too. I understand. Love, ~Amelia
@thats_italian - Before I get out and about, I wanted to get on here and say THANK YOU, dear Amelia! I, too, love Psalm 91! Isn’t it great that we can receive so much comfort in God’s word?! You,too, have quite a story! So many of us have suffered in one way or another and the reminder date comes every year. For some, the reminders are there all the time. I am extremely thankful for the Lord’s supernatural healing and comfort! You and your family are a blessing to me!!! LOve, GAil
@jans_corner - Hi Jan! Yes I did read that your condition won’t get any better. I guess I just don’t want to accept that news! I’m glad you are enjoying the color challenge! I will do anything on this end to help you enjoy life!!! I will talk to you later! Love, GAil
I wish I could just hug you right now. I understand. When we lost Rachel, we almost lost me, too. God makes us strong in Him, when we allow Him to work in us.
@SingingMom - Oh, dear Cindy, I am feelin’ the hug! THANK you! I really do believe that God makes us strong when we allow Him to work in us! Love and hugs back to you, GAil
what a beautiful. sweet. and powerful post~ knowing that He loves us and we’re kept by His grace… ah, yes… each day is a GOOD DAY indeed!!! love that pillow by the way. you must have one thoughtful daughter. thanks so much for sharing from your heart. you BLESS my soul dear friend~
love & hugs.
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i am certainly thankful that our GOD saved your life & protected you through that awful experience. and what a blessing to have a husband who is a comfort to you….my heart aches for women who don’t have that. satan will try anything to make us doubt & fear….i struggle with that as well – maybe is a mom thing….but then i have to remind myself that satan is already defeated! AMEN! & turn to the scriptures to refresh my soul. blessings to you today….looks like your sweet daughter has already begun to bless you in a mighty way!
@Hutch5 - Today is another good day! Funny thing about that pillow is what she put on the other side; Bad Day! I’ll put a picture of it on here sometime, but only to show what it looks like! } : Love, GAil
@life_by_grace - Ah, yes! Amen! satan IS defeated! And something I have to remind myself to do now and then is PRAY my ARMOR on! I am also thankful that my daughter does sweet thoughtful things every now and then. When she loves me back, I am more fulfilled as a mom! Love, GAil
I believe that God allows these situations to remind us of our dependance on Him and He gives us an opportunity to use it as a lesson ..a living stone…a reminder….a place in time ..a memorial…..when we can say “God did this for me on such and such a day and time”. We need to commit these memories to our family …and use them to remind us of God’s faithfulensss…..there will be difficult times again and when they come in full force..we can stand and having said and done all we can we can stand firm and say “My God is the same, yesterday, today and tomorrow. He did this for me in 1998 and He can sure help me in this trial. He is faithful and I will stand on that fact alone…I will not despair or give Satan or Fear a foothold”. BLUE reminds me of the sky (refered to “the heavens” in Scripture) ..Blue reminds me that my help and strength and courage do not come from this earth- but from heaven- the skies- where My GOD reigns in and over all the earth. “I will lift up mine eyes to the heavens from whence comest my help”…Keep looking Up- Up above our earthly existence (above our problems or griefs!) to that which we hope and live for…that which we cannot see ….for we live (and walk) by FAITH and not by sight! BLUE for me.. stands for eternity and GOD’s unfathomable, unsearchable, unimaginable, inmeasurable riches and resources …like..mercy, grace, forgiveness, strength, power, courage, love, blessings, provision, Joy, Hope, answered prayer, protection, companionship, encouragement, (the list is, well, infinite and unending like the BLUE sky above us!)