June 4, 2009
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Petals
I must tell you about this! I know that the Lord is wanting me to realize that part of my misery is of my own doing. Weight gain. It's ugly. It's depressing. To me, anyway. For summer, I like to wear pale aqua and yellow and pink t-shirts and tank tops. Well, my boobs have gotten fat. The entire boob. I am a modest person and don't ever want to appear in anything that would cause a male to stumble. So, I realized I had a problem and I didn't want to confine my shirt selection to black. I went to our nice department store and very shyly purchased silicone gel petals. I was the only customer for the three older sales ladies! They all smiled knowingly at me and the one said confidently that this product was indeed a good one! I'm sure my face was at least crimson. I went home, put the petals on and hoped that they would do the trick. At one point, I was cold so I checked the mirror. To my grief, there were the "puppy noses" big as day. I was so frustrated with myself! I just know it's all because I am too fat! I've never had these things this big before! After awhile I forgot all about it because other "stuff" was going on, demanding my attention. Later, I crawled into bed, looking forward to some real talk time with God. Hubby was snoring away and I was praying and switching positions in my teeny space in our double bed. WHAT? I rolled onto my side along with my big, cumbersome boobies and ahahahahaha! The petals were still on! You're supposed to take them off at night but I forgot. I giggled all to myself and I guess God had a giggle, too. And I was warm all night. ( : Now, I really need prayer to have the determination to lose weight!
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Persevere, sister. He will give you the desires of your heart.
I hope you don't mind that I giggled all the way through this! You are too funny!
I hope you find a solution that works for you! I understand that weight gain thing--it seems these days I just look at food and put on weight--arrgggh!
Blessings~Dawne
We had a guest preacher the last few church days. On Sunday night he preached that adult women should not wear tee shirts or flip flops. He had most of the ladies hiding thier feet under the pews and crossing thier arms over thier chests! I laughed!
A temporary solution might be to buy the things you like to wear, but in a bigger size.
...and one more...Did they make those petal things 25 years ago? In high school I had a friend that used bandaids instead of petals...((maybe our little town didn't carry petals!))
You are hilarious... Oh. my. goodness. : D
Lately, I've discovered blouses once again, they are nice and cool.
I know that feeling of, "Oh no, I never had fat their before!" Just go to one of those lousy dressing rooms and it's guaranteed. I don't understand why the stores have to use such stellar lighting. I would think their sales would greatly improve if they would tone it down a bit! : )
Take care now, and stop being so hard on yourself! ; ) Love to you! Big hugs! ~Amelia
I am RIGHT THERE with ya!
You have to make the decision: do you want to be fat and happy, fat and miserable, thin and happy or thin and miserable. Why would you be thin and miserable? Because it is such an ordeal to lose weight....at least for me, it becomes all-consuming and won't work unless I do it that way (diet, excessive exercise, etc.) So believe me, I understand!!!!!!! But you made me laugh this morning....thanks!
I remember having that problem too. Like going from a nice little b to double d's. I cried everytime I had to look in a mirror or see a picture of myself, let alone the horrible discomfort of them. I had so much back pain, shoulder marks from the bra straps digging into them from the heaviness of mine that I was granted a surgical reduction from the insurance gods about five years ago. BEST THING I EVER HAD DONE!!!!!! Now I can wear whatever I want without all those problems. Something else you can try, which someone who also had a reduction told me about. Cut one of those daytime panty liners in half, put them in your bra, one on each side. Pick if you want it to stick to you or your bra. Works like a charm. And there you go!!!! What a topic to write for on xanga!!!!!!!!! LOLOLOLOLOL!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO MEN ALLOWED!!!
@roamingchile - Promise? I will persevere! In my whole life I've always given up too easily. Hopefully, this time I won't! Love, GAil in AZ.
@DawneElla - I don't mind at all, Dawnie! I know that eat less, move more works for most people. But I need to amp up my metabolism, too! That's been a tough one! And the whole hormone thing....boy, it's ALways SOMEthin'!!! hugs, GAil
@Richgem - Just remember to trust Him, not yourself. We have work to do (in what ever our goals are), but really, the work we do accomplishes little. It is God in us that gets the work done.
@betheelou - Betheeloulou, you are cute! BANdaids! I bet petals did NOT exist 25 years ago! I did try the bandaid idea and it didn't work for me! I like the temporary fix of buying bigger clothes; emphasis on TEMPORARY fix! Just curious...why did that preacher say no flip flops? Love, GAil
@roamingchile - Therein lies part of the problem, trusting my SELF! Doing it by mySELF. Punishing my SELF. I'm so glad you responded! God in me... oh please do get it done! I need to slowly and completely read your posts; there's alot of seminary there! Love, GAil
@Richgem - Lord, I lift up my sister, Gail. Show her you are all-powerful, able to perform any and every good work. You are a good Father, who delights in giving good gifts to His children and restoring them body and soul.
Gail, that punishing attitude is neither God nor you. It is Satan whispering in your ear. He's lying to you. Every sin, even these subtle ones that put us in situations and circumstance we hate, is paid for on the cross. There is no need to punish yourself.
When you eat, delight in the Lord. When you workout, delight in Lord. Lay this at his feet, cry out for His help, then accept it.
OK, I've got to run... and methinks you should be sleeping.
God cover you in his love and peace. Shalom.
@thats_italian - OH, I KNOW! Those lights, those mirrors! You used a great word to describe the lighting! And blouses...definately a winning idea; I actually have a new pink floral that I am excited about; I just need to find pants to go with it! My younger and skinny sister gave me some of her J.Jill blouses that got too big for her ) ; and at first they fit me. Then my dear daughter threw 2 of them into the wash, then full cycle dryer and they are now too small. Send them back to Sissy?!? Or keep for motivation? By the way, I do love black and am dying to be able to get into a pretty little black dress forr the Fall and Winter. Love, GAil
@roamingchile - You dear, dear soul. I am crying...tears of relief and sensing your love and sincerity. I SO needed this! Do you have a counseling degree???? Thank you so much! I shall go to bed with a hopeful spirit. Blessings...GAil
@Richgem - He's 83 years old...I guess flip flops are just not a fashion statement for him...plus he said all these 'girls' who were them will have foot problems when they are old. He is quite the character!
@betheelou - ( : I love to wear flip flops of all kinds! I also love old preachers! My dad is one! And, I am proof that too much flip flop wearing DOES cause foot problems! So, for me, flip flops with arch support are the best! Love, GAil
@jans_corner - Hi Jan! Oh, that's an idea! But surgery is out for me! I almost tried the pantiliner idea; hahaha! This is really interesting stuff! ( : Love, GAil
@life_by_grace - Hey, Girlie! I'm glad I made you laugh! It's better than me just sitting here being morose! Do please pray for me! And as Roaming Chile says, let God do the work, and delight in Him. I am now focusing in deelighting in Him. Let's see what happens! Love, GAil
ROFL!! Really....I'm trying not to laugh.....
Buy the newer "t-shirt bras." They are lined with foam. They do the trick. Trust me
We are doing Weight Watchers. Four pounds lost the first week. It's actually very easy. We just do WW online.
Reading all the other comments. Chili Girl @roamingchile - is so right. If Satan can get you to loathe yourself, you won't be doing much for God. (Darn it, Necia...you've got me calling her Chili Girl!! )
Love you, Sweet Friend!
Ok...it's me again....just had to give you something to laugh about....
I just tell people I'm twice the woman I use to be!
(I was 105 lbs. when we got married.)
@SingingMom - Cindy, I'm glad you laughed! And I am wearing a "t-shirt" bra! It is cold outside, so I should go out and see...it's one I have rarely worn 'cuz I didn't want to seem even bigger. I also like your comment that you're twice the woman you used to be! I was 113 when we married, so I can relate to that! I don't know what I weigh now; just know that my 12 petite jeans are WAY too tight and I'll have to pick up some 14s 'til I can get back down. I used to wear an 8. I am doing better at not loatheing myself, so that's a huge blessing. What a TRAP satan had me in!!! YAY to my Xanga girlfriends! Love, GAil
@Richgem - Man, I wish it was cold here! No such luck. The t-shirt bra doesn't have enough foam in it to make you bigger...just smoother
Now, the Wonder Bra is a whole different story! 
I'm not even gonna tell you (at least publicly) what I weigh. I'm more than twice the woman I use to be actually. But most people don't guess I weigh as much as I do. But we are doing Weight Watchers and I have lost 5 lbs in the last 8 days. Not too bad, but I'd really prefer 10
I wear a 16 usually.
@SingingMom - Okay, first of all, YAY on your 5 lb. weight loss! Second, I went out into the chilly, windy backyard, came inside...I poked through my Barely There 38d foam bra. Phooey! I guess I'll try the pantiliner idea. What about Wonder Bra? I haven't tried that one. Maybe just for a laugh, I should! Gotta go now! Love, GAil
Well Gail, after I quit laughing I began to think why? I have been fat for so long and the older I get the harder it is to lose. I don't have that problem as I guess my boobs are different...lols. I wear T-shirts but I do not wear tank tops. I look very appropreate but I also don't have the problems of turning mens heads anymore...lols. That has been long gone for years. I turn one mans head and have it until death do us part...or until I kill him...lols! I hope you can lose the wait, I just feel that for me its a loosing battle! I have turned it over to the Lord but I haven't stayed committed myself. Prayers..
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Reading some of the comments above...I don't like a preacher that takes time out of the message to comrnemt on women...& their apparrel. I think if a woman is a Christian she is going to dress appropreate anyway....God looks at our hearts.
Sorry I guess today is a day for being long winded...again sorry.
HuGs...Linda
Oooops I typed the wrong wait...(weight)....
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(((((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))) ~ you did have me laughing though. Sweet girl ~ sheesh, I know what you are going through......and I need to sort myself out too....re my weight. Bless you girl....will pray for you.
You are hilarious!
@Mymanyblessings - Linda, you're funny!
@mymeanderings - Ahahahaha! Thank you!
@Neeka1 - Well,I sure do NEED those prayers! I'm so tired of rollypollyin' around!!!
Gail - you encouraged me in the past; now may I do the same for you. Even though I don't know you, I hear your heart - I will pray for you. I have not visited you for sooo long and had some extra time today. When I read this, I thought you might enjoy this story - from the opposite side of this problem! Some time back when I had my mammogram, I was so embarrassed to have this done again. I am soooo small. I told my husband that morning that I needed to think of something to say to her to help cover my embarrassment. So when she took me back to the room and was about ready to try to find something(!) to lay on that cold "shelf," I said to her, "I told my husband this morning you will not know which is my front and which is my back!!" She really laughed and said, "I am the same way!" That just helped me to relax! She was so kind. I have two sisters; one is exactly like me and my youngest sister has the same problem you are talking about. You are so very, very precious to be concerned about being a stumbling block to a male. I pray the Lord will honor your desires to lose weight. Again, I WILL pray for you. ~Blessings, Cordy
@threejoys - Cordy, I already love you! And I LOVE your story! It is perfect for "the OTHER side" of the story!!! You seem like a dear person and I appreciate your prayers! Another reason for needing to lose weight is to prevent cancer. Both my mom and older sis have had breast cancer and mom's most recent mammo revealed abnormality in the "bad" breast. So, it's a wake up call to me! Plus my Nana (mom's mom) died of breast cancer. So, here we go! Much love, GAil
Ohhh....I really must bring you to our Heavenly Father....that's quite a history of breast cancer. You can do this weight loss thing...."I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me." (Thank you for your kind reply.)
@threejoys - Thank you for the encouragement! I CAN do All things through Christ...! It really is ONLY with His strength that anything can be accomplished! I was reading your Love Feast blog. Does anyone OVEReat at that event?!? Love, GAil
Good Morning from PA. Gail, I was worried last evening after I sent you the above verse. I do NOT like to "just throw out" verses because sometimes that doesn't help if we are really discouraged. I know these truths ARE our rock to stand upon so I hope it didn't appear flippant as it was from my heart. Three months ago after visiting the doctor because of stomach pain, I discovered that my stomach can't handle hardly any acid and I had to give up coffee until it improved - or maybe for good. Oh Gail, that was so very hard and I thought about this after I gave you that verse. I can give up coffee but it is still hard. I know with His help you can lose weight but I don't want to come off as this is easy. I hope you hear my heart. On the other hand, what a blessing that He is right beside us to help us as we cry out to Him! About the coffee, if I go out with friends, I allow myself a cup and as of now that seems to be o.k. Here in PA. strawberries are in season and I discovered pretty quickly that is a no no for this year. About Love Feast, as a congregation we each have one dish of meat and a nice sized bowl of rice soup in front of us so, no, we don't overeat!
Where I tend to overeat if I'm not careful, is at noon where you saw the group of us having lunch between chores. Oh my, we enjoy making things for that as you can see. THEN I need to be careful!!! It's a wonderful day of working together. Then in the evening as we have the feet washing and the small meal, it is such a special reminder of what Jesus has done for me.......to remember again, to have a new appreciation again. ~Blessings on your Thursday, Cordy
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